I was reminded by a very, very close, personal, loving being, that I have neglected my blog. I was so oblivious to it, with all the shit in my life, and trying to get to a reasonable calmness in it. And especially, the reason I began this blog. The bitter hatred I was beginning to let empower my life, and the reasons for "waking" up.
Khloe is still the most important part of me, that keeps a breath in my chest, a beat in my heart. My wife and I are working crap out the best we can. I can't believe she actually forgives me for my B.S., and sometimes, I know she really doesn't. Who the hell can blame her? Not only her, but the many I hurt. I did not mean to hurt anyone, I assure you and myself that, but it happened. And I refuse to try to explain my actions. It wouldn't do any good anyway. Still happened, and still the same. I do wake up, and wonder why Sophia was taken from us. It's still the first thing I think of. And then seeing my beautiful, healthy Khloe. God, what a wondrous part of nature! She makes me feel so whole, and so needed. So happy....
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